I should say here I am a happy, even-keeled soul. If this were the Middle Ages, I would be in a book under the heading \u201cThe Four Humors: Sanguine\/Phlegmatic.\u201d\u009d<\/p>\n
Therefore, it was very unsettling to suddenly feel like a boat being tossed on the waves. I wasn\u2019t sad, I wasn\u2019t frightened\u201d\u201dI just had too many feelings. I decided to buy a Dallas Willard book to read anthropologically, of course. I read his Hearing God. I cried. I bought Lewis Smedes\u2019s My God and I. I cried. I bought Sara Miles\u2019s Take This Bread. I cried. It was getting out of hand. You just can\u2019t go around crying all the time.<\/p>\n
At this point, I reached a crossroads. I sat myself down and said: Okay, Nicole, you have two choices. Option One: you can stop reading books about Jesus. Option Two: you could think with greater intention about why you are overwhelmed by your emotions. It occurred to me that if Option Two proved fruitless, I could always return to Option One. So I emailed a friend who is a Christian, and I asked if we could talk about Jesus.<\/p>\n